Friday, October 14, 2011

One Day...

One day you wake up after a night of fighting & sleeping it off.
You think its going to be ok as you kiss goodbye for the day.
Hours go by, you get a text asking whats going on a facebook..
You know nothing of facebook because your working.
Your curiosity gets the best of you, you look.
Your "fiance" has changed his status to "single"...
Your heart drops. You cant breath, you shake & then you realize it wasnt just a fight.
Its the end of a chapter, a chapter you thought was going to be the last one in your book of life.

Today i get to start a new chapter.
Im not happy about it, im pretty sad actually.
But as we all know, ive overcome so much & ill overcome this.

You cant force someone to want the same life you do.....
Here goes to chapter 1,004,675 in my book of life.
I cant promise butter flies & rainbows in this chapter.
But i can promise someone being real.
Some one trying to wade thru the mud & find that clear water.


On a happier note. I got a surprise phone from the sweetest (almost) 3 year old, our first ever actual phone conversation. It brighten my day & warmed my heart. More on that later on. Lets just say in that aspect of life. its good. its better then good its amazing. I am the luckiest woman in the world to have josh & lizzy.. I am so lucky..

6 comments:

Cristal said...

I love you Katt. I hope you know how extremely wonderful you are and that anyone would be privileged to be with you. Just remember that everything does work out. There is a plan and your family and your heavenly father love you and are here for you always.

ps. if you have your patriachal blessing, read it.

audra said...

Katt and I came to your blog after seeing your most recent FB posts. I am so sorry my friend. You have been through so much in the past few years, and I'm so sad that you are still having to wait for dreams to come true. Draw near to your Savior and let him help you through this. You will be better in the end if you reach upwards instead of spiral down. He will not forsake you or leave you comfortless if you seek Him out. I second what Cristal said, you are something special and any guy that doesn't realize how lucky he is to have you isn't worth settling for. Praying for you!

Breonna said...

I am so sorry you are going through a rough time :( I'm thinking of you!

Ashlynn said...

My heart breaks for you and I wish I could just take you in my arms and hug it all right.
I am so sorry, I also know that our loving Heavenly Father is always waiting and willing to offer comfort and guidance. Draw near to him and he will never leave to struggle alone. Love you, Dawn

Ashlynn said...

Looks like miss Ashlynn was signed in last

WEEDS said...

I love you......mom