Todays the day I do something about it. I am done sitting around waiting for *someone to change so I can get on with what I want in life. Im almost 25 & my parents didnt raise me to live the way I have. They didnt teach me to let people walk on me, or let myself take care of everyone before I take care of myself. I am tired of it. I applied for some jobs today ( I hope everyone prays I get one, wink wink) & with the help of my lovely sister I applied for school. I dont think there is any reason for me with my work experience & life experience that I should be living with my parents with no car. I am excited to be on this new road of happiness. All I have ever wanted in life was to be happy.I can stand by the fact that lately I have been hoping for someone else to make me happy, for someone to change & realize what he is going to be loosing. But I am tired of waiting & i know I alone can be happy. Ill tell you at the lowest part of my life, after I cleaned it up & realized I wasnt settling anymore, I was the happiest ive ever been. I was the most happy when I was pregnant with my sweet sweet girl. Some think how could I ever be happy, pregnant & alone. Truth is I wasnt alone. I had my sweet son, my precious angel, amazing family & Josh & Lizzy. All those people were all I needed & i was happy. I am excited to get my own place & get life together & not let it fall apart again for the millionth time it seems! Some exciting things are happening, also some very hard things. I know I have been through harder things, i have weathered harder storms all I have to say is * tomorrows another day, im thirsty any way, so bring on the rain *