Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Today is the day I left the hospital with MY beautiful daughter, & placed her with Josh & Lizzy as THEIR beautiful daughter.

So many memories today. Getting my angel dressed in her special going home outfit. The car drive over to LDS Family Services. Sitting with Josh & Lizzy talking, cuddling the girl. Handing Mara to her Mom. Hugging when I was about to leave without my most precious item I had walked in there with. Driving home. Opening the gifts Josh & Lizzy had given me. The one that stands out most & forever will be in my mind is when I was sitting on the couch next to my mom about an hour after I had first gotten home... I got scared that Mara was scared. I was afraid she didnt know them. She didnt know their voices. That she wasnt used to them, she was used to me. ...

Now I can sit and realize that she did know them.
She wasnt afraid.
She knew that this was her plan before she was even born.


audra said...

You were so strong that day, I remember it clearly. Remember that strength when life crashes down or when you feel like taking less than you are worth. You are capable of anything after what you accomplished a year ago today.

I love your last sentence in this post, brought a little tear to my eye.

audra said...

Ooops...a year ago yesterday!

Anonymous said...

she sure is a cute girl! I love looking at her on Josh and Lizzy's blog. What a blessing for them, and for you!