Tuesday, November 10, 2009



Today is the day I left the hospital with MY beautiful daughter, & placed her with Josh & Lizzy as THEIR beautiful daughter.

So many memories today. Getting my angel dressed in her special going home outfit. The car drive over to LDS Family Services. Sitting with Josh & Lizzy talking, cuddling the girl. Handing Mara to her Mom. Hugging when I was about to leave without my most precious item I had walked in there with. Driving home. Opening the gifts Josh & Lizzy had given me. The one that stands out most & forever will be in my mind is when I was sitting on the couch next to my mom about an hour after I had first gotten home... I got scared that Mara was scared. I was afraid she didnt know them. She didnt know their voices. That she wasnt used to them, she was used to me. ...

Now I can sit and realize that she did know them.
She wasnt afraid.
She knew that this was her plan before she was even born.

3 comments:

audra said...

You were so strong that day, I remember it clearly. Remember that strength when life crashes down or when you feel like taking less than you are worth. You are capable of anything after what you accomplished a year ago today.

I love your last sentence in this post, brought a little tear to my eye.

audra said...

Ooops...a year ago yesterday!

The White Family said...

she sure is a cute girl! I love looking at her on Josh and Lizzy's blog. What a blessing for them, and for you!


slizin