Thursday, November 27, 2008
Happy Thanksgiving
Yay! Its time for the holidays! Today all the big bunch of us got together for Thanksgiving. There were like 30 people here! It was really nice to be able to spend some time with the whole family, we dont get to see some of you that often! Now that Thanksgiving is over I can put up the Christmas tree!! WHOO HOO!
Thank You Cindy!
As most of you know, before Josh, Lizzy & little Mara left back for Vegas, we had a photo session with a friend of my case workers * Audra*. Cindy was amazing and I know I will forever be greatful for that gift she has given us! She posted the pictures on her website and Im not sure if I was allowed but I stole one! Go check them out when I get them I will post them right away! lilypstudio.com
Monday, November 17, 2008
My Very Special Week
The last week I have had the honor of placing my beautiful daughter Mara with her new parents. I placed her with them Monday afternoon, it was a very emotional time, not just sad but very happy. Wednesday morning I went in to sign my relinquishment papers, just like a bandaide I ripped it off and got right to the point so I could spend as much time with Mara as possible. Josh and Lizzy got released in RECORD time, a total of 25 hours! They didnt leave even though I was very afraid that they would, in my mind it set how they would be the rest of Maras life. We had a very special photo shoot on Saturday with a friend of Audras * my caseworker* with Kristofer. He really loved being able to hold his baby sister all by himself! Josh and Lizzy came to my parents Sunday before they left for home. Im sure they were super ready to get back! I was lucky enough to be blessed with such an amazing couple! Josh and Lizzy have become more than just the couple who adopted my daughter, they are family, and my best friends. We have a bond that I could never have with anyone else. I wouldnt of been able to make it through as well as I have without them being the amazing people they are. As they got ready to leave on Sunday, the only thing I wanted to tell them was * Thank you for loving my daughter, giving her the family that is whole, and making sure she has enough kisses and love for two mothers!*
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
From Gods Arms, To My Arms, To Yours
From God’s Arms, To My Arms, To Yours
So many wrong decisions in my past,
I'm not quite sure if I could ever hope to trust my judgment anymore.
But lately I've been thinking, because it's all I've had to do.
And in my heart I feel that I should give this child to you.
And maybe you can tell your baby when you love him so
that he's been loved before
by someone who delivered your son
from God's arms to my arms to yours.
And if you choose to tell him and if he wants to know
how the one who gave him life could bear to let him go,
just tell him there was sleepless nights I prayed and paced the floor
and knew the only peace I'd find is if this child was yours.
And maybe you can tell your baby when you love him so
that he's been loved before
by someone who delivered your son
from God's arms to my arms to yours.
I know that you don't have to do this, but could you kiss him once for me
the first time that he ties his shoe or falls or skins his knees?
and could you hold him twice as long when he makes his first mistake
and try to tell him that he's not alone? Sometimes that's all it takes.
And he's not alone. I know how much he'll ache.
And maybe you can tell your baby when you love him so
that he's been loved before
by someone who delivered your son
from God's arms to my arms to yours.
This may not be the answer for another girl like me
and I'm not on a soap box singing how we all should be.
I'm just trusting in my feelings and I'm trusting God above,
and I'm trusting that you can give this baby both his mother's love.
And maybe you can tell your baby when you love him so
that he's been loved before
by someone who delivered your son
from God's arms to my arms to yours.
So many wrong decisions in my past,
I'm not quite sure if I could ever hope to trust my judgment anymore.
But lately I've been thinking, because it's all I've had to do.
And in my heart I feel that I should give this child to you.
And maybe you can tell your baby when you love him so
that he's been loved before
by someone who delivered your son
from God's arms to my arms to yours.
And if you choose to tell him and if he wants to know
how the one who gave him life could bear to let him go,
just tell him there was sleepless nights I prayed and paced the floor
and knew the only peace I'd find is if this child was yours.
And maybe you can tell your baby when you love him so
that he's been loved before
by someone who delivered your son
from God's arms to my arms to yours.
I know that you don't have to do this, but could you kiss him once for me
the first time that he ties his shoe or falls or skins his knees?
and could you hold him twice as long when he makes his first mistake
and try to tell him that he's not alone? Sometimes that's all it takes.
And he's not alone. I know how much he'll ache.
And maybe you can tell your baby when you love him so
that he's been loved before
by someone who delivered your son
from God's arms to my arms to yours.
This may not be the answer for another girl like me
and I'm not on a soap box singing how we all should be.
I'm just trusting in my feelings and I'm trusting God above,
and I'm trusting that you can give this baby both his mother's love.
And maybe you can tell your baby when you love him so
that he's been loved before
by someone who delivered your son
from God's arms to my arms to yours.
Thursday, November 6, 2008
The baby is coming YAY!
As of today the doctor set me up for induction on Saturday November 8th at 9 am! I am so excited to be skinny again! Also for the fact that Lizzy and Josh will finally get their little baby girl!
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